Some pretty good advice and love here...
I am just here to support you not picking up. You got a lot on your plate in a short time, I am sorry to hear that..
This is a biggy, a unbelievable chance to overcome. I hope you get out to a meeting or a double header is what I would do. And wake up tomorrow still sober. I know it will be better than coming to, just to start thinking about this all over again...
Sending a prayer for you..