Sidney,
The moderator of this board can move it over to the PTSD board. I too was overwhelmed when I found out about my kids. This was just last year. My daughter remembered everything. I too went to counseling. It was one of the worst things I've been through. I'm not over it yet. That's what flared up my PTSD after years of being ok.
All we can do is take it a day at a time and make this the best day we can under the circumstances. It was also too long ago to do anything to the man that did this to my kids. It's hard to watch them get away with something that has tortured my children. I put it in God's hands.
We do have so much in common.
I'm going to ask to have this post moved to the PTSD board. Look for it there if it's not here anymore.
Hugs,
MG