Hi and welcome LotusJemm
I'd tried to quit many many times...I'd always gone back - so yes...I had a lot of doubt in my own ability to stay sober - but at the the same time I was determined not to drink again.
I really worked hard at staying sober - I made some big changes in my life - what AAers call people place and things...and I made a daily commitment not to drink.
I also spent a lot of time here
If you don't want to drink - and you're prepared to do however much work is required to back that up, there's no reason why you won't stay sober LJ
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