Originally Posted by
zorah 
I go to meetings and try to talk to people but it's incredibly awkward. I'm so fed up with trying to be part of any kind of group. I'm always bad at it. Except when i drink of course. Drinking really took care of my social handicaps (though the price was too high). I cringe when the meeting's over and hardly anyone talks to me and when they do, I respond in a stilted and awkward way. I feel like a pariah--an outsider who speaks another language. I see people gabbing away and wonder--what are they talking about? It's a mystery to me, but then human interaction has always been a mystery on some level. I'm so sick of this. I'm not 8 years old for God's sake!
I think a lot of it is that I'm not used to being social without booze. So, do I have to learn how to talk again?
zorah
Keep going, it will get better. You aren't the only one with this problem.
This subject would be a great topic to talk about at the table with your sponsor and the oldtimers.
I always quit just before the miracle happened... I try not to do that today.
All the best.
Bob R