Well done on your year eddie! Not sure if this applies to you, but my sponsor has a saying, "stark, raving sober." She told me she gets that way when she isn't working her recovery program of choice, which is AA.
It sounds like you are going to meetings, I was wondering the same thing as bbthumper, where are you on your steps? Is it maybe time to kick your program up a notch? Back to what my sponsor tells me: Life keeps going after we get sober. Ups
and downs keep happening. The everyday application of the steps into your daily life is what sets us free.
I'm not there yet myself, of course, but I can see the serenity in her and in the other old-timers who cultivate their program like a beloved garden.
All the best to you eddie!
