Thank you Dee and Indamiracle and you Sapling, thank you so much for sharing.
I'm quite terrified and shocked in a way that I am doing this, I am mostly scared I won't be able to commit, that i will secretly plan my drinking life ones i am out. I hope they can finally make me understand I don't need to spend my every waking minute sabotaging for myself.
I find your story Sapling reassuring, I get the feeling this place is similar although in India which is different....I was also glad to read on their website that most councellors are recovering addicts themselves which makes it easier to open up for me as i am sure they can relate.
My biggest challenge will be to not worry about the future when i am there but to remember that if i manage to stay sober i can make my dreams come true whereas as i am right now I am throwing away every chances that gets in my way.
Thank you all.....love u all!