Hooped, stick with it. I am in the fellowship and I see a huge rangeof ages come into the rooms and get sober and happy. In my drinking, i could just about stop of my own accord, buti could not stay stopped. AA helped withthe staying power. Don't be despondent. No one here found any of this easy. But you won't find anyone who says that the hard work they've put into their recovery isn't worth it.
Take careand keep posting!