Hi Terry,
Firstly, welcome to SR
You will find a lot of support here. I would work on getting some support at some local meetings, at least wait until you are completely sober before you do anything like that. None of us know the situation as well as the sober you does. We have all done things that seemed perfectly logical while drinking only to wake up the next day with a strong case of "What did I do that for" etc.
Keep posting & sharing, you will find a lot of support here
