Hi Hooped
I'm sorry to hear of your losses, your pain and your struggles and misfortunes.
How do you cure despair? How do you get hope?
A vision for the future?
Is it there?
What I did? I figured I had a choice - I could listen to that internal voice I had telling me I wasn't worth a damn, life is crap anyway...and why not go out all guns blazing...
Or I could listen to the folks I knew and trusted here who told me that life does get better when you commit to sobriety.
I chose the latter - I really annoyed the other voice lol - but I'm glad I did.
I made the right choice - it was a long process, but there was a good man in me wanting to reemerge.
I know the same is true for you Hooped.
Make a good choice.
D