Bad year...got an 'awakening'
Ive lost some family menbers this year and that has been tough.
On top of that, I am now partially disabled and dont know if I can return to work, if at all. I'm eligable for retirement but its a cat call on when to actually pull the plug.
Tried quittin drinking many many times in the past with some success.
Started off again slowly in the spring with a glass of wine with a relative while my Mother was dying.
Actually not drinking was great, a nice turnaround and I should get back to it.
Today, I was in my lawyers office, , me an old man handling my late Mom's estate.
My lawer...he is a nice guy, older than me actually, and he started to mention some books he's been reading.
'One next Year' is a book that he told me was outstanding and he recomends it.
Then he started mentioning the things that will curtail your life.
He stared with smoking, then ....drinking.
Weird ... when he mentioned drinking his eyes were intense.
How did he know?
Not hard to figure out really. Bloodshot eyes and I probably stink. Im hobbling around with a cane with enough money to drink myself to death within weeks.
Don't know what to do.
How do you cure despair? How do you get hope?
A vision for the future?
Is it there?