I'm not going to comment on your above recent post other than to say AVRT is a very precise kind of experience, and can be very razor-sharp when a few of us get together, lol. I hear what your saying, and again, I'll just not really add to the already surreal experience you seem to be having for whatever reason...
In any case, I wish you well and all that goes with those wishes with the best of intentions. Stay cool.