Control:
Letting go and trying to control the situation and start taking care of YOU
She may come back and may not - It suck's I know. Been there!
But hanging on, and trying to "control" the situation will drive you crazy..Been there!
It's a hard thing, to step back and release that butterfly. Gut wrenching!
But the most rewarding thing you can do is step back, and release your own
butterfly..And that would be you....
You're doing awesome by posting, venting and asking question's
That's a huge start...KEEP GOING - HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!