Hi OCDDan and welcome back!
havent had a nervous breakdown (yet)
That's exactly the same thing I used to say to myself, especially at the end of my drinking. I felt like it took more and more effort to hold it together.
(Now that I think about it, when I'd finally had enough, it felt a lot like a breakdown, even though most call it surrender or whatever.... so maybe it's not a bad thing!)
It's good to see you here.....
