Bluebelle - so sorry you're going through this. It's exhausting. I've been there. I can't tell you how many hours I spent researching suboxone, then researching signs of suboxone when I saw the pinpoint pupils again. In the end, I accomplished nothing other than gaining knowledge of a subject that I didn't know anything about. Even in recovery, there's nothing we can do other than work on ourself. The only good thing I did during this time was continue to go to therapy for myself. I find that the most positive results for me is when I focus on myself and what I can have an impact on - ME. Their behaviors and mood swings are emotionally devastating. We can't change them. But we can change ourselves and our own emotional growth. You'll find your way on your time - remember to keep the focus on you and what keeps you healthy.