Alright. I am taking one more crack at this.
I am going to dive headfirst back into the Small Book along with Taoist and Zen Buddhist writings to find the strength and strategy to give up drinking for good. I have only had minor setbacks with a few Beers here and there however I still do not like how it feels and where it may lead me if left unchecked. The beast keeps winning and I cannot allow that to happen any more. Here is to the first day of sobriety all over gain.