When I was 15 days dry I was a poor judge of anything.......
If I woke up on the right side of the bed the whole world looked wonderful and everyone was my friend.
If I woke up on the wrong side the world sucked and everyone looked mad or depressed.
It was the same world and the same people, it was just my outlook that colored the perceptions.
As others have said, keep going to your meetings and you will see yourself as you really are and be quite satisfied with it. After all... you are God's work.
All the best.
Bob R