Thing is after I have been 2 or 3 days without a drink my mind or a little voice inside me convinces me to have a drink even when I dont actually feel like one.
This is a red flag as far as I am concerned.
Drinking caused all my depression and doomsday thoughts, I had panic attacks and itchy skin all the time , it's all gone now completely.
Maybe stop completely for a 100 days and see how you feel.
if you do not have a problem this will be easy.
I will say though that life free from the drinking and the obsession over alcoHELL is much much better.
Good luck.