You are all very right. Since i havent spoken to him hid sister is now testing me saying i should love her brothe no matter what and i should love and support him. She doesnt understand how hard it was to live the way I did for over s year with an addict. The verbal abuse alone, forget it. It still really hurt to hear that I was a terrible gf when in reality i was the victim. A week and two days since ive spoken to him feels like a life time but I feel more and more stronger everyday with all the support. Thank you.