hi rose,
I am also a black-out binge drinker. I used to try to keep myself out of trouble by drinking at home alone, but there were many times I ran out of booze too early, so I would I go out and wander into various bars in my area to keep drinking. I live in a big city and there are tons of bars within walking distance.
Often, I would start to hit on bartenders or other girls I had never met. A couple times their bf's were right beside them and I would get into fights and wake up with cuts and bruises. I would wake up horrified. I mean, who goes out by themselves drunk and hits on strange women and insults their bf's? I was 'That Guy'. The creepy drunk dude. *shudder*. Sometimes I would end up at these bars a month or two later with friends and the regulars seemed to know me and would thank me for buying them drinks. I had no real memory.
I guess I relate from a guy's perspective in that I too become that person we would never be when sober. Hate it!