Originally Posted by
walkingwithgod 
I fell if I go to AA I can never drink again, even though I know I shouldn't.
Ooh, I had this... It's funny, I started off using AVRT because of my 'fear' of AA, but then later on I used what I learnt in AVRT to get me to my first AA meeting
I think it's important to point out though that you don't
have to use AA. Maybe look into SMART? I have been using some CBT worksheets I got from my addiction counsellor and they work really well because you can't argue with them. It is all based on your own thoughts anyway so there is no outside challenges. It just really helped me to highlight where my thought processes were going wrong. If you're interested in that PM me and I'll send you a link
Maybe you could show them to your therapist and see if they thought it'd be worth working through them x
Sorry you have been struggling and I hope you find the right help for you soon x