Hey Audry,
Hope your head is not to bad this morning. Was it the anxiety of going to AA that set of the drinking ? most of the AA'ers seem normal sober people on here , if thats any help .
You can google the AA big book online and have a read as there are quite a few people who put it up there to try and help people just like you or i .
Also these forums can be of great help as they are here 24/7 full of people sharing experience , strength and hope . Have a click about, read, learn and share or ask questions.
Congratulations on choosing hope over hoplessness ,
Bestwishes, M