Voyager, You CAN do it.. I know exactly where you are coming from. Yesterday was my youngest child's 7th birthday. Every time I got the urge to drink, I gave my kids a big hug to remind me why I was staying sober.. When that wasnt enough to combat the urges, I jumped on here or called a friend. Its not going to be easy, nothing worth having is ever easy to come by. You have all of us here on SR for support & cheering you on!! I am proud of you!!!!!