Although my DOC was opiates... I relapsed more times than I remember. I knew I had to quit for years before I ever wanted to... and even once I wanted to it took more years "waiting for the right time" before I ever gave it a serious go.
For me, the time was never going to be right. I was never going to be "ready". I just had to do it.
Took probably at least a half dozen serious attempts before I found any success.
50 days clean & sober. We did it, you can too!