Originally Posted by
PohsFriend 
If I can't take a little reality I have no chance of surviving this.
Good. I hope your unborn child survives.
Here's some more reality for you:
Some babies die.
Mine did. I was the mother. And I wasn't an alcoholic or an addict.
Your gestator is both. The stats. are not in favour of your baby being born healthy.
Are you prepared for the possibility of a dead baby after the baby is born or a stillbirth or a baby with brain damage or fetal alcohol syndrome? A baby being weaned off alcohol or other drugs in the NICU?