Sorry to hear you're struggling lonewolf...
I've been in that spiral - the only way out is to stop drinking and find help, man
I agree with the advice here - see a Dr.
The 10778 clinics in this database are free, low cost, low cost with a sliding scale based on income, or offer some type of financial assistance:
Free/Low-Cost/Sliding-Scale Clinics
It's a much better bet to have professional medical advice that it is to try and self medicate with various meds you have lying around.
I think you could also get a lot of benefit out of going to meetings daily rather than drinking for another week, lonewolf.
what have you got to lose?
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