Thank you to those of you who figuratively slapped me in the face. I am trying to bury the pain. I realized that when I read some of the replies and I just wanted to cry.
I think the hardest part with the Crush is that I have had a crush on her for many years. But we were never close until we started working together about the same time I met my wife.
I am shocked that I would even think about putting my self in the position of being the other person. But I have almost let my self do that in the past.
Owathu, I am going to do what I enjoy, today I'm going to go shopping and maybe go for another drive. Maybe even go NC with my codie friends. That might be all of them. I need to step back and look at my life. It seems like an open road, but the choices I make now can have lasting effects.