Originally Posted by
tjp613 
I feel like my well is dry and I have nothing to offer him...so I just don't take his calls. What is this really saying about ME?
There's an old saying...if the well runs dry, nobody drinks. You need time and space for your inner wellspring of life to renew and refresh itself. This doesn't make you a bad mother, this makes you human, and recognizing and respecting this for yourself makes you wise. No one benefits from you ignoring your own need for protection and peace. Guarding your sanity against the onslaught of an addict is crucial to your health, and it doesn't harm your son in any way for you to make sure your rights are respected. I think it makes you a role model.
You and your son are in my prayers. May you both be held close in God's loving arms.
Blessings.