My xah is on cocaine. He gets supervised visits. He lost custody. My son is 4. Its conflicting. In a way I want my son to see him (supervised only), but my x is in addict world and has a sense of entitlment and delusion and irrrationality...its hard to deal with. I have to. But honestly, if I had all rights (no supervised visits) I don't think I would want my son to see his father unless he was sober/recovery. BUT life isn't black and white. And my son, 4yrs old, wants to see his daddy. So, I have to deal with random 2 hour plays in the park. My x isn't welcomed in my house. My son never knows visits will happen until we pull up and see daddy. Daddy never calls. I have strict bou7ndries to protect my sons well being. But no matter what, my son wants to see him.