Thanks everyone for your responses I had to leave work early today from a horrible migraine, I neverwanted to take a sick day... I always pride myself on being reliable... But I just couldn't do it today. I am a weak person. I would like to go back to AA but how can I when I have no energy really to get up and get out of my place... I can't even eat or get any sleep when I lie down. I am having constant panic attacks, my nerves are shot.. Don't even have the energy to go sit in a doctors office and wait. I am also so scared to do it. I am literally dying of panic attacks here. I dont have any alcohol around and don't plan on getting any right now. I can't relax and it is just killing me. I want to be around people because I feel so alone but at the same time I don't want to be near anybody.