Being on here makes you want to drink...
But you drank when you weren't posting to SR, Meso. I am confused with what you are hoping to gain.
From someone who's benefited immensely from coming to SR for support, I hope you will reconsider.
I will repeat what I said in another post to you, if the same mind (or AV) that tells you it is OK to drink tells you that you can do this on your own, I'd be wary.
I wish you luck. I hope you come back in a year and tell me I was wrong.