Count me in the illogical grief club. It hurts like a son of a b, regardless of whether or not we wanted it or that it is the right thing to do.
In all honesty, I have been cycling between relief and devastation since my divorce was final three weeks ago. Back and forth. Its exhausting! But I know the time will come when relief starts to win over devastation, and the tears will dry, and I can sleep a full night with no help from pharmaceuticals. It'll come. In the meantime, its just one day at a time.
Hugs and prayers,
T