Jaz, My story is very similar to yours. What was once fun, social drinking has become drinking alone and to escape my feelings or something that's going on in my life. I am technically only on my day one but didn't drink for almost a month back in April, and it was the best, strongest, most freeing time I have had in probably ten years. And I want it back! Oh...and, like you, all those years of trying to lose weight seems like a party in comparison to this struggle.
Alcohol plays mind games with us..and once we start feeling good again, we think we can handle it. This website has amazing support, it's a great place to turn when you are craving or just feeling blah. It's like a constant reminder that sobriety is just SO Worth it.