Lone Wolf~
Like the above mentioned, I think you have hit bottom, but only you can really know, however, by reading what you posted you have seem to hit it.
I would highly suggest getting to as many AA meetings as you can. Also, I hate to say it but you may need to forgo the job interview unless it's some high profile job. You should probably turn yourself in too. That is just a nightmare waiting to happen for. Do you have a lawyer??? Maybe get a public attourney!?!? Also, ditch the girlfriend and focus on your family!!!!!!!!! She will be yesterday's news tomorrow. AND pray to a higher power like you have NEVER prayed before!!!!!
I will pray for you!!! You need some serious help!!!!!