I recently told my ex that if I could afford it I would stay drunk all of the time.
That it's only when my bank balance gets low that I stop.
And that's been the truth.
Which is different for me, I have never been truthful about my drinking. I lie. Rationalize. Justify. Defend.
But lately it occurs to me that I am hurting myself badly by isolating myself with these lies.
So I am trying to be honest, with myself and with others.
**Trying**
What do they say, "progress, not perfection".