I agree Sally...Maybe getting a smaller place would be a great start for you....It sounds like that house is the cause of a lot of depressing thoughts for you and alcohol takes care of the rest....You have to start with getting the wine and whatever you have in that garage out of there....You can't be detoxing with a stash in the next room....I'd like to see you in a hospital getting care myself...But you have to make that call. Just hang in there Sally and try not to drink today...At least you keep checking in here...I pray for you Sally.