Thanks folks. Feeling terrible this morning, of course. My youngest son is devastated, and we just dont know what to do anymore. This will push back my rehab, as I will have to do another home detox. But as it's a bank holiday in England, I wont be able to see my doctor until tomorrow. That means I'll probably drink all day today, and tonight. It feels like my choice is gone.
I just cant cope with this relentless depression. Everyone says the alcohol causes it, but how come I still get it even when I've been sober for weeks, months, even years at a time? To me it feels like an entirely separate illness. Obviously I could be wrong, but that's how it feels.