Hi Finallygotout
I read your post earlier this morning and it was like receiving a punch in the stomach.
I think Choublak answers it for me.
I have been with my partner for 18 yrs although I haven't been a heavy drinker for that long. It is the lies he is finding difficult to accept, says he cannot trust me, cannot believe a word I say and dreads coming home from work! How bad is that, how could I do that to someone I love?
I think the person I have lied to more than anyone is myself and it's time now to be honest and turn my life round. Sorry is not good enough anymore. I now am going to work and work at this. Actions speak louder than words now, for me!
Big hugs
Gxx