"Social" drinking
Last night I went to a party at a friend's house. There were a lot of people there I didn't know, and I ended up drinking a lot. I often do that to alleviate social anxiety. Today I felt horrible, hungover and depressed. I ended up wasting the whole day doing nothing.
Tonight I was supposed to go to a going away party for a friend. I knew I would end up drinking a lot again, because this was going to be a big party where I would not know a lot of the people. So, I decided to skip it because I really did not want to drink tonight.
Now I feel bad for missing my friend's party, and depressed that I can't handle social situations like that without drinking. I feel like if I stop drinking I won't have a social life anymore. So much of my social life revolves around alcohol.