BodkinVanHorn wrote:
>>>>>>I guess after he killed himself, I just blamed myself and told myself that if I had been better, more understanding, if I had been perfect it wouldn't have happened. If I had been more commanding, more direct, more crazy instead of being a pushover and just going along. I know now it wasn't my fault, but what you said, it shot through me.<<<<<
......From everything I have learned,BodkinVanHorn----
there is not a damn thing you could have done either way.I hope you let go
of the bad Karma that suggests otherwise.
Yes,sometimes I comb the obits.I know one day I will read her name.My takeaway from
this 3 year travail....(1SEPT2009) is that noone can fight another's battles for them,and
it is folly to try.
Certain vehicles have modes of operator/vehicle coupling that produce
VERY undesirable results.....
----and the answer is to simply LET GO and let the vehicles
NATURAL STABILITY damp out the out-of-phase operator inputs.
Is it EASY to let go when the damn thing is doing something crazy? Hell no!!
(BUT IT WORKS!).
You didn't do anything wrong.You did the best you could.So did I.
I'm sorry for your loss.I think by now you know that none of it was
EVER in your hands.