I hope that you are able to handle the pain. I work with lots of people here in my state who have to get waivers from their doctor for both dot and dmme, I understand that since your doc won't talk to you, this isn't an option. I wish there was something that I could do to help, but unfortunately it seems you are backed into a corner. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. If the form said they test for sub and all I'm sure they would require the waiver from your physician for you to drive, my hubby is a trucker and he has to give the waiver to his employer, dot, and dmme b/c he hauls coal from local mines. If you can continue in treatment talk to the doctor about the waiver, if not, hold on to your determination and get into NA or some other support group. We don't recovery alone and no one can understand your journey like another addict.