Welcome, Etta - I'm so glad to see you've joined the posting side of this forum.
Sounds like the drinking is causing some problems for you, and I think you will find a lot of support here.
Hard to tell if the depression, anxiety and loneliness stems from the drinking, but the only way to find out is to get the alcohol out of your life. It distorts what may truly be going on for you.
I was scared to death to quit drinking, but I was also scared to die, and I came really, really close. I never thought I would stumble to such depths of despair.
Once I quit the booze and worked on what I needed to do to get my life back on track, things changed, and for the better. Clarity brings answers.
So once again, welcome.....we understand; you're not alone.
All my best....