Welcome GiantGuy
Sounds a lot like where I was. Except, my wife (now ex) did know I was drinking.. I'd come home and just start mixing up a drink, and drink until I fell asleep, usually by 8pm or so. Repeat that daily for several years. I still look back and think what a huge waste of time.. But, all you can do is fix today, and slowly make amends with the past. My big thing is that I'd quit, and then think I was magically healed, that I could drink normal again. It's not so. I believe once you've abused alcohol, you're an alcoholic for life. Don't get some time under your belt and then do the same thing! You most likely will fall back into the trap. Stay strong brother, and -- Go Steelers
