I guess I have to decide what it is best for my family and myself. Today I will not drink and I will start there. I feel like I am killing my body and mind with booze, and fear I won't live long. I am only 34, and am out of shape and sluggish. I need to spend drinking time exercising. I have a golf tournament with clients tomorrow, and people will be drinking and expecting me to drink. No sure what to do. I have to play.