I can tell you from my experience that I once was a drug dealer and eventually started using, to be honest to numb the pain. I guess I felt the guilt that I was ruining other peoples lives and not only "they" are affected, but it could be a whole community.. I can somewhat relate due to the fact I had the girl of my dreams since I was in 8th grade and lasted all the way until I was 26 and she was 27.. Well long story short she found out about my addiction and the "activities" I was up to.. I dont blame her at all for the choice she made to leave me!! I was slowly spiraling out of control.. kinda like what you explain with your husband.. I hope you the very best!!!! Be strong!!! I hope he gets the help he needs! Hes spiraling down very fast it seems..