My drinking career was filled with guilt/shame and humiliation. I believe that is part of it. So many times i would question what I said and did the next day. The guilt was and always has been a drive for me to stop drinking. I was fully aware that I had a problem and that i needed to quit. After many go rounds I was finally able to stop.
Beating yourself up over what has happened will only make things worse (easier said than done). Today is a new day and its a fresh start. Walk into this day with resolve. You are human. We all make mistakes. You are laying the foundation for a new you....the real you. Please keep posting. Your church family does not have to know of your struggle. Its your business. Share here with us. Keep your head up. The anxiety will start to leave once you get some solid ground under you.