Can't wait till this vacation is over... Starting again.
Well day 11 with my parents arrived yesterday, I have never had so much pressure to drink and so many questions about why not. I told them last week that I think I'm an alcoholic and they laughed at me and said I dont drink enough to be one.
So I had 2 drinks last night. And I'm not hungover and feel fine other than being sooo angry with myself. Like you all said I should have prepared more, had my list of what to do if the urge was here. I should have looked for AA meetings in the area.
How do you all do it? I want to be like you and free of this alcohol hold. I'm mad today. I see my parents and the binge drinking and unhealthy lifestyles but I still drank.
I know I have to commit better to this. My desire is there but I think how so many of you have pointed out if I dont commit to never drinking again than I will keep playing this reusing pattern.
I love my children. I know my health is vital to them. I Want to be a great mom for them.