I understand what you are saying and Im
sorry to hear what you're going thru.
I'm one of 4 sibling who was born into
what appeared from the outside as a normal
middle class family and yet, if others could
be a fly on the wall, they would certainly agree
we had a dysfunctional one.
My mom was the sick one mixing alcohol and
prescription meds together, and yet she was
a functionable working parent who unleashed
her wrath upon me.
Thru out my childhood till i left home at 18, I
out of 4 was subjected to her physical, verbal,
emotional abuse and pretty sure the others were
quite aware of her meaness to me.
Of course we all grew up and left home to go
our seperate ways as I found alcohol to numb
the pain of the past. Eventually, at 30 I entered
rehab for recovery and learned to detach and
divorce myself from my family of orgin unit.
22 yrs. sobriety and to this day still believe my
family thinks Ive made up all the stories of abuse
in my head and that I use my alcoholism as a
crutch to explain what all happened to me as a
child.
Today, i no longer worry about my family of
orgin because they have been placed in God's
hands and I can continue on my path of recovery
enjoying life the way I am meant to do. It's a
huge relief to not have that extra baggage to
carry on my shoulders any longer and to know
that I dont have to explain anything to anyone
ever again because the Man upstairs knows all.
Life in recovery is awesome.
