Welcome to SR, digitalcomfort. Since you've been reading the posts here for a while, you already know that getting sober and staying that way are hard for many (most?) of us. You also should know that many relapses start with what you're doing right now: being indecisive. I don't know much about AVRT, but I do know that at the core of it is the statement "I will NEVER drink again." Not much wiggle room in "never". But from what I read in your post, you've given your AV plenty of room. You said, "on July 15th, I decided to quit forever." and yet you're considering drinking this weekend? So that people don't look at you funny? C'mon. You know where drinking this weekend will take you. So do yourself a favor and start taking your antabuse again, don't go to the family reunion, or at least decide that forever is longer than five weeks. Commit to NEVER if that's what it takes to keep you sober.
You can do this.
--Fenris.