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Old 08-21-2012, 01:37 AM
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EH21
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How does one conquer self-hatred?

I've been in recovery for a little over a month now (minus a small relapse). I feel great. Life is the best it's been for a while. I've been doing research and educating myself on my disease as much as I can as well as reading about others' experiences.
As I've come to find out, a lot of other people share my problem with self-hatred. And this is a huge reason why a lot of people become addicted in the first place. That being said, as time goes on, I realize how much of a problem it is for me. It puts a huge strain on my relationships and my ability to be social. It makes it very hard for me to enjoy my day. I spend a lot of time judging myself and beating myself up for things that I've done in the past. I put myself under a microscope and try very hard to be perfect. I think way too far into things and end up stressing about problems that don't even exist.
I was wondering if anyone else feels or has ever felt like this and if so what did you do to improve?
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