Thanks all. I'm sorry its taken me so long to reply. My mom was visiting from out of town and I spent the last few days in family/vacation mode. I am starting to feel "better" about it. It's still very awkward and confusing. I haven't heard whether it's officially happening or not. I am not over it yet, but I'm getting there. I need to pick up my journal and get it all out. I cried a bit this afternoon for multiple reasons, but I'm sure more tears are coming.
Thanks again.